I haven’t had the opportunity to update in quite a while unfortunately but looking at the analytics for my site I’ve noticed can I get one or two visits from Belgium every day. Most of my viewers come from the United States or UK and while I have views from just about everywhere, it’s a very consistent pattern. So, Belgium, I would be happy to hear from you whether you like the work, dislike it or are just a bot. In the meantime, there is much more work at http://www.lvalenza.com
A friend of mine had posted a photo of her husband walking their dog in a snowy wood. I was quite taken with the image of the bare trees silhouetted against the snow but didn’t really give it a second thought until I saw Marina napping on the bed. s previously discussed, she never ceases to inspire me. It may be anachronistic but she is, and always has been, my muse. The sheet reminded me of snow and then the trees, the finished piece formed in my mind immediately. Putting the figure in the snow would just be silly and a bit too close to surrealism, a movement I was never particularly fond of, than I care to go. I am particularly fond of the dynamic between the figure and ground in this piece. I’d rather suggest dreams than illustrate them.
When I first met my wife in Oxford, we would spend entire afternoons wandering it’s streets. We must have trod every bit of earth in the entire town over the course of that month. Going back with her years later I was struck with a “this is where it all began” feeling and wanted something to keep that for me, a souvenir. The song Souvenir, by OMD, always reminded me of Marina over the years we were apart, despite the absolutely horrid video. This is kind of a visual companion for the tune I carried around in my head for decades.
For a while I worked as an Art Consultant at a gallery in Soho. It amazed me how passively people interacted with the artwork they were looking at. Someone could spend thousands on a painting and only spend a few seconds actively engaged with it. Like it or not, many collectors, even educated ones, tend to buy art by the square foot and whether it matches the sofa. I’ve always tended to be at odds with this aesthetic. I’ve sat looking at a single image for ages, getting lost in the paint. Wall based work has always been problematic for me as the singular experience has always been so important to me and something hanging on a wall tends to be too passive for me, then again, I’ve never really thought of my work as art with a capital A. When you have to hold something in your hand and manipulate something in order to see it, the viewer experiences some of the same intimacy the artist has with the creative process. They become responsible for the artwork, a co-conspirator, forced to become involved on a deeper level, to look deeper and more thoughtfully.
The gallery I showed with at the time would continually ask me to do larger, wall based pieces because they are easier to sell and tend to fetch higher prices. I found that the lager works I made tended to be more detached, less autobiographical and subjective. I didn’t necessarily dislike doing this kind of work but it was made for an external audience whereas my Icons are made solely for myself. Once completed, they enter the zeitgeist but I make no conscious effort to communicate or explain anything (except now on this blog, ironically).
Quite often when I work, I paint or carve some element with no clear idea what I intend to do with it. In a way it’s like creating my own objets trouvé. An image may lie around for months or even years before I understand what I want to do with it. Digging through my studio I am sometimes pleasantly surprised by an old, problematic friend. Sometimes the answer never presents itself or informs other works without resulting in a completed work of it’s own. This piece is a prime example, the figure was painted about ten years ago and, while I liked it, I had no idea where to take it. Ultimately, it inspired a series of small icons in which I had a lot of fun playing with ideas about the relation of the figure to ground, something that still is an important aspect of my work. Each of the works below is about six inches tall.
For a long time the original panel with the figure was hanging over the bathroom door at the gallery. Last year I looked at it and suddenly the surrounding image presented itself and down it came, my found object.
A pretty portrait of a child is often only of interest to it’s family. I have tried to paint my daughter before but have never been fully satisfied with the results, technically or aesthetically. This is a painting of my daughter, Molly. I wanted something that was specifically her: capturing some part of her personality without being cloying or saccharine. This is the first image of her I’ve done that really reads for me. A gorgeous bundle of sweetness, imagination and imperiousness all rolled into a pink Disney dress on an Ikea throne.
It’s very hard for me to paint small children for one simple reason: they are out of proportion! I was schooled in proportion and anatomy before I could read. My mother is an artist and my earliest teacher. She taught me all the golden rules of anatomy for adults, not children. Kids are a whole different ballgame: their heads are to big, their faces are distorted… maddening, most of my attempts wind up looking like distorted adults.
I was once commissioned to paint two identical portraits of a toddler for a divorced couple living on either side of the Atlantic. I painted them simultaneously, side by side, measuring with calipers as I went along. They were identical in every regard but, for some reason which I couldn’t resolve, one captured the essence of the child while the other seemed lifeless. When I presented them to the father (who’d ordered them) he immediately pointed to the lively one and said “That one’s mine.” The other was shipped off to the UK. I hope the mother liked it, it only suffered when compared to it’s twin.
Molly thinks this painting looks mean. I had to promise her, and my wife, that I would paint a “pretty” picture of her in exchange for being allowed to finish this one.
A late night in 2000, driving a long, quiet stretch of the Garden State Parkway, I was hit by one of those elusive, visceral memories I babbled on about in my last post. A top forty station was the only thing I could get with any reliability and, since I needed noise to keep me awake, I had no choice but to mourn the death of western civilization at the hands of boy bands, autotuned popettes and suburban rappers. Then, in the depths of my despair, a song came on that slapped me in the face. It was an upbeat tune, pure pop and vaguely reminiscent of Nat King Cole’s “Lazy Days of Summer”, a favorite of mine. The singer had the typically bland, squeaky pop voice and it wasn’t a particularly brilliant song but there was one line that almost made me hit the brakes: “When I kiss your salty lips”. I was instantly transported back to the summer of ’77.
I am 15 years old, working at a summer camp in upstate New York. It’s evening in the empty playground with a girl whose name I can no longer remember. The last sliver of light is silhouetting the trees and providing enough glow to make everything beautiful. She’s my age, probably a waitress. We’ve been talking, moving nervously closer to each other in an excruciating dance of expectation. Fleeting, accidental contact, our heads tilting in a super slow motion collision. I’m going to kiss her! It’s not my first kiss, but it will be my first “French” kiss. Our mouths meet and the first thing I think is “Her lips taste salty, weird.”
I had to make a piece about that, not necessarily a literal rendering but something that afforded me the same reverie as that insipid song. I painted “Her Salty Lips” (2000, 24” x 48”, OC) for the exhibition that I was getting ready for. It was one of the first to sell and I was surprised at the opening how many people understood what it meant from the title.
The image still gnawed at me afterward so I got to work on an icon for myself. It was one of the most strangely sensual pieces I’d ever come up with and resonated with me much the same as Munch’s “The Voice/Summer Night”, possibly the most erotic painting of all time. If I could steal one picture in the world, this would be it.
My second effort “Her Salty Lips” (2001, 6” x 14”, mixed media) allowed me to explore the subject more closely, building, recapturing the turning sky, the grass under our bare feet. It’s one of the few pieces I’ve never allowed myself to part with and to make sure it always stayed around I gave it to my wife who still makes me swoon like that fifteen year old boy.
As a child I spent a good deal of time wandering the Brooklyn Museum. The section that fascinated me most was the period room wing. Sure, very nice rooms from the Vanderbilts or whatever but the amazing parts, the bits that could hold me rapt for hours, staring intently, were the scale models of the buildings that the rooms came from and the fact that the room I was looking at was recreated in miniature next to the real thing. One of the most important things a work of art does for me is create a sense of intimacy, an almost conspiratorial closeness between the viewer and the artwork. Those models demanded an ever closer examination and engagement. The reward for me was to be lost in a private world as an active participant. This is the singular goal for everything I make.
I have an absolutely horrible memory. When I do remember things it feels detached, like something I saw in a film or read rather than an actual experience. As a result, much of my work is an elaborate mnemonic exercise. I’ve always envied people who remember things “like it was yesterday”. The only way I can approach that visceral sensation is through my art, digging, parsing, dissecting. Start with the some core element then work outwards. Old photographs retain importance as much, if not more, for the background bits as for the subjects. Reconstruct detail, scale and spacial relationships in a series of Aha! Moments. When it works I am able to keep that as a real memory. While much of my work is obsessively autobiographical, I don’t think there is anything exceptional to it, and for me, that is it’s beauty. If I am really lucky, some viewer may look and see some commonality with their own world, like a little boy with his nose pressed against the glass of a showcase at the Brooklyn Museum.
This is a model of my old apartment as it appeared in the spring of 1986. By pulling info from old photos, measuring things that I still have. I never considered it a dollhouse and approached purely as sculpture. Every element is made by me with the exception of the doorknob, and that still bothers me. I’d look into a dollhouse shop in NYC every once in a while looking how things were done in mini, asking arcane questions of the shopkeeper and ultimately walking out with one or two sheets of basswood. I think he must have dreaded my visits, which, in retrospect, were utterly useless. American Miniaturist magazine saw this room on my old website and asked if they could write an article about it. Initially I was aghast, “This is not a dollhouse!?!” Then I got over myself and realized that most people would see it as a miniature first and foremost. They weren’t making me compromise the work so, sure, why not.
As yet untitled. 2013, 34″ x 44″, OC. I’ve always enjoyed painting en grisaille, possibly because it adds to the totemic quality of the figures. I’m not really a naturalistic painter anyway. Afterwards, I glaze with light washes of local color and the result has the feel of a tinted photograph. I’m not sure if this is finished, half tempted to ratchet up the color since the figure is in an environment. We’ll see.
Twice a gallery has refused paintings from me and on both occasions the works happened to be personal favorites. First was a landscape titled “Over Here” (2001 O/C 30”x 48”). Was it offensive? Immature? Amateurish? No, it simply made the director of the gallery feel “cold”, as in chilly. I have always found it to be one of my strongest and most evocative landscapes, a respectful nod to George Innes and Albert Pinkham Ryder but it only evoked cardigans to the gallery so back it came. Maybe I should have brought it to them in summer… It did later find a home and never a peep about temperature from the collectors.
Since I tend to paint many figures and many landscapes, a gallery asked me to produce a show of figures IN landscapes. This was problematic for a few reasons, my work tends to avoid naturalism (to me at least), I’ve never been a big fan of genre paintings and if the figure is in the landscape there should be some plausible reason for it to be there. I turned to the Arcadian works of people like Poussin and Eakins for inspiration and out of twelve images produced four that I was relatively satisfied with. This was the one that I connected with most “Here We Are” (2003 O/C 28”x 32”).
“It’s too confrontational.” What?!? What the hell am I supposed to do, paint children at the beach? Since when is that a bad thing? God forbid the work questions the viewer with something other than do you think I’ll look good over your couch! I am a male painter, whether I like it or not, the male gaze is inherent in my work but at least I am aware of it and don’t apologize for it. I do, however, mess with it on occasion. The director was put of by the fact that the “confrontational” figure was clothed, and female. Really? That was the whole damned point, but out it went… Without this picture as a lynchpin, the rest of the show made little sense. The show did not do as well as anyone had hoped, tho the strongest paintings did later sell. Like an episode of Blossom, there were lessons for everyone. The gallery learned that collectors who buy figures aren’t necessarily interested in landscapes and even more so vice versa. I learned not to pander and set to work on the little icon that would change my life, “Her Again”.
One evening in the late 1980’s, I heard my cousin’s voice as I passed the Carriage House Inn; an old fashioned, old man’s bar. It was a relic of Park Slope’s pre-gentrified past. I’d never been inside but had been fascinated by it since childhood because of the dusty model stagecoach in the window, hence the name. He was my favorite relative even though he was almost old enough to be my uncle, so I decided to stop in and say hello. There he was; holding court at the bar, jolly and not quite sober, arguing with one of his friends about the game on TV. Although we saw each other on a regular basis (Sunday dinner was always a day long event at my aunt’s house), we’d never spent any time together socially, probably because of the age difference. Now that I was in my twenties, it seemed only natural. He was happily surprised to see me and offered me a drink. Over the course of a beer our conversation went from small talk to more personal things. It’s strange how you can know someone your whole life and never really get a sense of them. Gradually, this happy go lucky joker became brooding and sullen, the beer made him honest.
“You know what really scares me? I’m forty years old and I’m alone. I don’t want to end up by myself.” My father’s side of the family had a very high percentage of people who never married, for various reasons. It had never occurred to me that my cousin was on his way to becoming one of them, or that he ever thought of it. This was the first time he’d ever spoken to me as an adult, I felt honored and obliged to help.
“Well, what are you doing about it? Are you dating?” I asked.
“I work odd hours and I never get a chance to meet anyone.” He worked nights but that alone couldn’t damn him to eternal bachelorhood. Then it hit me “Well, look where you hang out, look around. You spend your time in an old man bar for Christ’s sake! Look, there are no women, just a bunch of old guys watching basketball! How do expect to meet someone in a place like this?” I felt so noble. “You are never going to get laid if you stay here!”
I continued this concept for a few more minutes until I convinced him of the impossibility of ever meeting a girl in the hell hole we were in. The bartender came over and asked me if I wanted another drink. I really wasn’t crazy about the beer so I asked “Do you have Jaegermiester?” This was in the days before it was mass marketed as the drink of choice for frat boys the world over.
“Did someone say Jaegermiester?” I heard a voice behind me ask. I turned around and standing behind me was a very cute blonde! “Yeah, I did, you know it?”
“Know it? I love it! I didn’t know anyone else knew about it!” We immediately fell into conversation, and then I remembered my cousin. When I turned and glanced over at him I could see what he was thinking by the look on his face. He’d been coming here for years and never seen, let alone met, a girl while I pop in once and within twenty minutes I’m putting the munch on a cute one. I felt like my fine noble lecture was a load of hypocritical bull, but she was too cute to pass up. I introduced him, and myself, and dove back into my chat.
After a few minutes she told me that she lived right above the bar, had never come in before and just wanted to see it. “If you’d like to come up to my apartment, we could have another drink.” The invitation was obviously just for me. I turned to my cousin; he was just staring into space. “Larry… um, you know… I think I’m gonna go with her.. are you ok?” God knows what he was thinking at that moment. Maybe if I hadn’t come in she could have wound up with him, maybe she was supposed to be the girl of his dreams. He shrugged with a resigned smile, “Sure, go ahead, I would.”
I felt like a complete cad but, young buck that I was, I couldn’t pass it up. We went upstairs to her small, tidy apartment. She poured us more drinks and sat on the couch with me and took out some photos of the work she did. She was a prop designer for the theatre. She was currently working on some furniture pieces for a new Broadway musical version of The Phantom of the Opera… I wonder if it ever took off. Then we started getting, um, comfortable and she asked if I’d like to hear some music. “Do you like Bowie? I have him singing Heroes in German!”
“I love Bowie! Yeah, put it on.” I was thinking two things simultaneously; it’s a great make out song and how could this rarity have escaped me? She put it on and came back to the couch.
Ich, Ich bin dann König
Und Du, Du Königin
Obwohl sie, Unschlagbar scheinen
Werden wir Helden, Fur einen Tag
Wir sind dann wir, An diesem Tag
Hmm, I can’t believe I never heard this before… she smells nice, I can’t believe poor Larry… oh wait, this is from Cristiane F., he was performing it in a concert scene… I wonder if I’ll be staying over… the back wall of Connie Planck’s studio was the Berlin Wall, how cool is that?
Ich, Ich glaubte zu träumen
die Mauer, Im Rücken war kalt
Schüsse reissen die Luft, Doch wir küssen
Als ob nichts geschieht, Und die Scham fiel auf ihre seite
Oh, wir können sie schlagen, Für alle zeiten
Dann sind wir Helden, Für diesen Tag
This girl is… wait a minute, is she crying? “Are you ok?”
“Yes, I’m fine. It’s just that this song reminds me of someone.”
“Are you sure? Maybe I should go so you can get some sleep.”
“I was going out with this guy in Berlin and this was our song, it just got me a little depressed for a minute.” Then why the hell did she put it on in the first place? Great, now she’s really sobbing. Obviously she’s not over this guy, I’m not about to compete with him and I’m not about to be a rebound; perfect because I’m not him then inferior because I’m not him.
“Tell you what, how about I go home, I’m tired anyway, and I think you really need some sleep. Next time we’ll have a proper date, alright?” She thought about it for a moment and smiled with red eyes, “Ok, you can come over and we’ll order some Chinese food.”
“Sure, sounds great.” She gave me her number and I told her I’d call in a day or two, knowing full well that I wouldn’t.
After about a month, guilt managed to catch up with me and I thought of her again. She really was a sweet girl and I was, as usual, an asshole. I found her number and called, it was no longer in service. I looked at the buzzer on her building, her name was gone; she was gone. Maybe she went back to Germany. Maybe she was standing, by the Wall. I hope so.
Dann sind wir Helden
Für diesen Tag